doa for mom n dad

Ya Allah,
Rendahkanlah suaraku bagi mereka
Perindahlah ucapanku di depan mereka
Lunakkanlah watakku terhadap mereka dan
Lembutkan hatiku untuk mereka

Ya Allah,
Berilah mereka balasan yang sebaik-baiknya atas didikan mereka padaku dan
Pahala yang besar atas kesayangan yang mereka limpahkan padaku,
Peliharalah mereka sebagaimana mereka memeliharaku.

Ya Allah,
Apa saja gangguan yang telah mereka rasakan
atau kesusahan yang mereka deritakan kerana aku,
atau hilangnya sesuatu hak mereka kerana perbuatanku,
Jadikanlah itu semua penyebab rontotnya dosa-dosa mereka
dan bertambahnya pahala kebaikan mereka dengan perkenan-Mu ya Allah,
Hanya Engkaulah yang berhak membalas kejahatan dengan kebaikan berlipat ganda.

Ya Allah,
Bila magfirah-Mu telah mencapai mereka sebelumku,
Izinkanlah merekamemberi syafa'at untukku.
Tetapi jika sebaliknya, maka izinkanlah aku memberi syafa'at untukmereka,
Sehingga kami semua berkumpul bersama dengan santunan-Mu
Di tempat kediaman yang dinaungi kemulianMu, ampunan-Mu serta rahmat-Mu
Sesungguhnya Engkaulah yang memiliki Kurnia Maha Agung,
serta anugerah yang tak berakhir dan
Engkaulah yang Maha Pengasih diantara semua pengasih.
Amin Ya Rabbul Alamin..

moment of truth

moment of truth; i'm handing my resignation letter to the boss today. it took me 2 minutes to decide whether to print the letter out or not this morning. one minute to fold it nicely and put it in an envelope. and forever to wait for the boss to come in to the office...! !

s**t!

the one with thousands of words

...people says a picture worth a thousand words, and here are some of my thousands of it...

-- the family --

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..dad push stroller slowly = nafha screamed, dad push stroller swiftly = nafha screamed happily.. and asking for more!!

...opah with cucu; taking some of her early steps..

>> here's the answer to the 14kg question.sebab org selalu sgt tanya mama & abah dia apa nafha makan sampai boleh jadi tambun sgt...

...me n the apple of my eyes

...happily having a daughter and anxiously waiting for the second child this mid october

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.. the same wishes you gave me on the plaque, i wish the same for you aida!! may we both find the happiness we're lookng for!!

..here are 5 from the 8 books that has been left unread and catching dust by me.. note the latest Narnia Chronicles!! thanks to hotchick for making it real!!! -

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..and thanks to popo n remi for making my 25th birthday full of girly PINK and RED!! and remie is rite when he said BLOODY PINKY on the comment he made in my last entry. well, the pen is loody pinky, and shining too!!

...err.. how much bulu pink is enuff for a bloody pink pen ha..?

7pm.. still in the office.. what?!

yeah.. yeah.. whatever..!

It's already 7pm according to my ol' faithful G-Cool -- which I got from my brother in 1999, or should I say took from my brother in 1999 -- and I'm still in the office. before u guys hold yer breath in amazement like what my collegues did just now at 6pm, no, it's not because I have loads o' work to be done, but only to buy me some time before tonite's agenda - to catch midnite show (Janji Johny) with Popo, Remie (once, i cringe everytime i call him remie, bcoz i was so used to his real name; zuraimi) and Aida. Been quite some time, hmm.. nahh.. looooonnnngggg time since the last time I ever be able to catch a midnite show.

My impish boy has been warded in a hospital in Sabah since the day afore yesterday. Had an operation, something about taking out some lump from his leg, which may cause to cancer if they didn't take it out or something, something. Do I really oblige to care, to even give a small damn to that..? If I'm still 18, I know for a fact that I'm already by his bed now, giving all the love, comfort and tender in the world to ease the pain. At 25, that idea seems very ridicule, though he asked me to come. The best I can come out for him was "Yelah, nanti masa solat I'll pray for you ok" -- which I did. I guess that's OKlah since his call will only come if he fall sick, sakit gigi, boring, yadaa.. yadaa.. yadaa..

Ok, nuff said. Wanna get my b*^@ out of this office. Till then, daa!! Nic Saputra here I come!!!

firts timers

I should have posted this pic with the last entry, but i can't get hold of the pic till this morning...

the fisrt timers(though some of us not):

fidaz, ewin, nina sma, chet, aida (ala2 fazura; green n pink.. huhuhuhu..), ina, me, noreen, kelly & nong (plg suka hempap org)

...at this point of time, mmg menyesal kenapa tak start futsal sejak dulu. Kalau tak mesti dah byk lemak terbuang! tiskk..tiskk.tiskk.. anyway ladies, looking forward for the next session!!!

blissful weekend

Should have post his entry by yesterday, but I was attacked with acute gastrointestinal; in layman’s term – diarrhea. Hahahaha!!! Even the grossest thing can be beautiful in science term!

Turned 25 last Friday. The idea of celebrating it didn’t crossed my mind afore that, I was like “yeah.. yeah.. another year went by, no biggie” . Plus I do believe that nobody really want to make it such a big fuss anyway… and how wrong I was…

By Sept 0001hr I should received calls from my closest friends to wish happy birthday, if only I didn’t forgot that I had put my phone in silent mode!! ;p!! My day started with birthday SMSes. Even a friend who shared bad memories with me sent me a wish, and that is at 6.40am!! I also got wishes from mom and dad. Dad even prayed I can get married soon!! That, you have to wait lah abah!! Attended an exam at 9am, and managed to pass it! It’s going to be my day, I told myself.

Later that nite, we had a committee meeting cum dinner at Tupai2. They sang me the birthday song. Hmm.. nice.. and then followed with karaoke session at Yow Chuan Plaza till 3am. Lost my voice.. ahaks! Sleep over at Aida’s home.

Morning come, need to go to work. dannggg!! Aida’s mom prepared nasi with lauk sambal udang.. awesome betul.. punya syiok makan, masuk keje kul 9.30!! Managed to catch a movie later in the afternoon. Oh, yeah.. the apple of my eye wished me Happy Burfday!! ;p

Best part yet to come later that evening >> FUTSAL!!! This is the first time I played Futsal. Tiring, but awesome!! So awesome that we decided to play futsal on fortnight basis. Ahaks! I managed to score a goal for the team.. hahaha..!!

While we were sitting around the Sports Barn to catch our breath, suddenly the girls came in with a cake. I was stunned (poyo). Before that I already saw the cake that another friend bought for me, and I thought that was it. So, 2 cakes, for me..!! A coffee cake and a Secret Recipe’s Choc Banana – both are my favorites. I was touched, really touched. Thanks ladies!! Thanks soooo much! Cut and made a wish on those cakes together with Apes n Apis, whom I share the birthday month with. [& I just realized yesterday, i forgot that Papa's birthday is on 21st Sept!!].

We all went to Syed after that to catch dinner, and just hang out to catch up on things, present, past and about to be. The girls sleep over my house that nite. Reached home at about 2am. Mom still waiting, eager to know the details of that night events. We all sit together with mom, and started to talk and tell. Mak tiba2 garu kepala, there was once when we sit and told mom about boys, make up and such. But tonite we told mom about Futsal!! ahaks!

I was wrong when I think that I’ve been forgotten by the world. Some of my wishes also came true by my celebration of 25 years of living. My dream to own the Chronicles of Narnia made true by Noreen. Aida gave me a ceramic thingy which was written with pray & hope. My wish of being able to forget n forgive him also has been realized. And I'm still waiting for my pink pen with bulu2 from REMIE n POPO!!!

At the age of 25, I am a happy person. *wink*

…kalau aku tertidur tolong kejutkan, kalau aku jatuh tolong bangunkan dan kalau aku mati tolong kuburkan…

:: Semalam aku belajar beza antara kawan, teman, & sahabat ::

Aku ada masalah, masalah keje. Teman tanya aku, apa aku nak buat lps kontrak aku habis. Aku cakap ngan teman, aku nak keje sendiri. Aku dah menyampah keje kat sini. Teman tanya balik, ko dah habis pikir ke? Lepas tu teman komen decision aku. Sambil tu dia peringatkan risiko2 yg bakal aku tempuh. Tp dlam 10 dia cakap, 11 negative stuff.

Aku diam, mmg ada betulnya.. tp kenapa tak nak kasik aku cuba dulu? Teman diam, lps tu dia cakap “ok, takpe. Lu cuba dulu. Belakang gua tlg tanyakan lubang lain utk lu”

Kawan menyampuk. Terus condemn decision aku. Tak kasik aku peluang nak bernapas, tak bg aku peluang nak bercakap. Terus menerus downkan aku.. terus menerus suntikkan negative vibes kat aku..

Aku diam, tp lps tu aku tanya balik, abih tu kalau aku tak amik decision ni, sapa nak kasik aku soru? Kawan pulak terdiam. Aku tunggu; takde reaksi. At this point aku dah sedih gila..

Belakang, aku mendomba kat sahabat. Sahabat bgtau maybe apa yg teman & kawan cakap is because of concern. Sahabat pesan, tak payah amik pusing sgt apa diorang cakap. Most important thing is u do what you wanna do. Aku takkan tau limit aku sampai mana kalau aku tak cuba. Yes, there are risks in everything we do everyday. Tp kalau dah asyik nak duk kat belah yg selamat aje, serupa ko makan nasik lauk rendang hari2!!

Mak aku pesan, paling penting buat benda yg kita enjoy, yg kita minat. Kalau dah hari2 nak gi keje aku serupa mayat hidup, baik tak payah. Selalu risau, nanti cepat tua. Agaknya pasal tu la mak aku nampak lg muda drpd adik2 dia.. Kuat tul azam org tua tu.. Mak, I LURVE YOU!!! Mak la sahabat yg plg aku treasure sekali kat dunia ni. Walaupun kekadang aku tension ngan mak, psl kadang2 dia selalu nak komen decision aku, tp at the end dialah pengafundi aku yg terbanyak. Dia gakla yg selalu ada bila aku jatuh. [walaupun lepas tu dia akan cakap.. "tu la, kan mak dah kata.."]

Semalam aku belajar beza antara kawan, teman & sahabat. Kawan dengar. Teman dengar, bagi opinion & option. Sahabat dengar, bagi opinion, option & support. Sahabat jugak janji sambut bila aku jatuh. Alhamdulillah, aku ada banyak sahabat..

turning 25

4 days to go of celebrating my 25 years of living. Tiskk.. tiskk.. tiskk…

At the age of 17, I made a list of 100 things I wanna do before I die. Updated that list at the age of 22, and had reduced it to 75 things I wanna do before I die. Last week I revisit the list, and decide to loose another 25 silly wishes.

So, here goes, my updated list of 50 things I wanna do before I breathe my last breaths; marked in green for things done, blue for on it, red for not even started to achieve it.
1. To be rich
2. Be a good Muslim
3. Send mom & dad to Mekah for Haj
4. I, myself go to Mekah for Haj
5. Gondola ride in Venice
6. Vacation in Bora Bora Island
7. Have a full set of Harry Potter’s books [6 in hand, 1 more to go!]
8. Fortnight stays in Bali; land of culture and beauty
9. Dye my hair red
10. Own a PDA phone
11. To be in news for good cause
12. To have a mini library full of comics and treasure it till I’m old
13. Have a full set of Lemony Snickett’s Series of Unfortunate Event story books [9 more to go… *sigh*]
14. Have a burgundy colored wall with white furniture bedroom.
15. To be able to enjoy cartoon shows till I’m 65; so that I can “groove” with my grandchildren (ahahahha!?)
16. To be a proud owner of Volvo XC90
17. Obtain scuba diving license
18. Watch sunrise from Mount Kinabalu, and down to Tanjung Aru Beach for sunset, in one day. Err.. or two !?
19. Loose (lots of) weight before my high school 2006 reunion trip
20. Visit all islands in Malaysia; Pulau Sibu will be on top of the list
21. To have a complete database of orchids
22. Renovate mom’s house
23. Buy Canon IXUS digital camera [done, but bought Olympus C750 instead)
24. Visit Great Wall of China
25. Learn to play at least one musical instrument
26. Attend at least one big sport event [done]
27. Finish reading the Lord of the Rings chronicles [tried, but dozed of after 10 minutes]
28. Meet my first love, just to catch up on things
29. Get married and have 5 cute, bright kids
30. Bungee jump
31. Climb the Eiffel Tower stairs
32. Have my picture taken at the same place, in the four seasons; winter, spring, autumn and summer
33. Buy a car on my own [done, and now I wish I hasn’t]
34. Dancing in the rain with the one
35. Do good deeds, join charity organizations
36. Learn golfing
37. Learn to wear and be comfortable high heels [still learning, comfy for the first 3 hours, started cursing “whoeverinventedhighheelsinthe1stplace???” afterward]
38. Try drugs, just to know the taste of it [done, but in a very, very, very lil’ amount. Finding; not good]
39. Mastering the art of baking/making cheese cake
40. Fall helplessly, unconventionally, deeply in love
41. Attend one huge rock concert
42. Build a complete family tree
43 – 50. Things that I want to share with no one else but myself.

25 years and still there’s so, so, so much more things to do..